hooo

mwahas.

i'm bloggin! ahh. yes. i'm not dead.

just that my computer has been throwing tantrums and i can't really go online, that is, to blog. hoho

so, now, i'm in school! with thomas staring behind, of course.

i actually thought of closing down this website, but i thought,' ahh. what the heck. leave it la.'

within this few weeks. many things happened.

- i've stepped down in NCC.
- had many mock exams. which i'm quite confident of. some la
- saw leonard, that idiot
- saw diane, that woman
- hated more teachers.
- rukmani is back.

some are like totally disasterous. but some are like so happening.

atiqa calls me a 'minah', that bloody 'ah lian'

and where's the bloody 'ah lian radio'?

bahh.

i'm feeling so depressed.


JANNIE IS HERE! spying on me.

help

any useful methods for me to de-stress?

wth?

So, France didn't win the world cup. Italia got it. I didn't managed to watch the whole game. Watched till 3+4am. I surrendered. I dozed off at some parts even coffee wasn't helping much. bahh.

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Okay, tomorrow marks the start of intensive studying.

Cos the small group teaching prog will officially start tomorrow.

So, school will end at 6++pm.

NO FOOD AH!. PARENTS WORKING = NO FOOD.

Actually there is la. Maggie lor.

*yawns.

misses and kisses

emoemo just sank in me. Again, and it always happen at night. And it seems that it comes with a reason, like usually.

I don't know why, but what sharlene said to me during our conversation hit me, badly.

I told her, i used to make promises like, 'If my mom doesn't cook today, i will kiss him'

But i'm actually hoping my mom will cook. So, i'll don't have to kiss him. In the end, my mom didn't cook at all.

So, the result is, i'll have to kiss 'him'. which i never did. Not once, twice but many many times.

And sharlene says that God is actually giving me chance, but i've never cherished it.

Oi, real or not. I don't think so la. Pure coincidence okay.

I've never say the 'him' 's name whenever i make such promises. But, somehow, his picture will just come into my mind. Ah yah, whatever. i don't wanna talk about this.

i'm missing a couple of people right now.

i miss syf people.
i miss tiffiox
i miss fruits and 4bs and zhirong and mathew
i miss yogi
i miss kh
i miss nch
i miss spag too. (i doubt he will ever read this, like he cares, but i still miss him! (:)
i miss dawn


have you ever felt that your family members have the ability to make you shut up and make you feel that you're in the wrong when you jolly well know that you have your reasons and you're fucking not wrong?

They just won't listen to what you have to say.

And it makes me want to suppress all my feelings. Keep it within me. hoping for it to fade when i jolly well know it won't.

Sugar.

i just went through that.

AND for world cup.

i'll take france.

death proned once again

The 'small group teaching program' officially starts on tuesday. which means, school will be ending at 6.30pm. Sugar.